Agung Hapsah is a big part of my junior-senior high school transition. I joined the
In the other hand, Vincent Ricardo. I knew him since around last year. He doesn’t really influence me, but I can use him as an example
Today, I got a notification from YouTube (Notif squad!) that Agung just uploaded a new video. I was hooked.
Then, suddenly I saw Ricardo there. That was a big surprised to me. It’s rare to see a big YouTuber collab with a small YouTuber like this
My initial impression with this collab was… jealous
Two YouTuber that (IMO) similar to me, doing a collab without me…
Yeah, I really am wanna do a collab with them. So it would become a big-small-tiny YouTuber collab 😂
Btw about that similar statement. Some of my friends said that I sometimes looked and act similar to Agung Hapsah, and that’s not one or two friends either. It was three
I think it was Busel, Juna and Gex Anggi. They said that I imitate Agung, when in reality I just do what I usually do. But who knows what my subconsciousness doing
And Vincent, to be
The very first thing that I saw from Agung’s video
Is that sponsorship thing. Damn, I am so jealous… Bukalapak is one of the company that I want to work with, they seems like a great company
And Ricardo vids? He put the sentence ft. Agung Hapsah in his vid’s title. OMG, I am so jealous
It seems like,
Yeah, that happened a lot of the times. I got what my friends wanted (That I don’t really want). And my friends got what I wanted so bad.
It became a circle… a line?! of jealousy
But… here come the twist
At least in my opinion. In Bahasa Indonesia we have two word that describe something similar. Iri dan Dengki
According to my interpretation, they are describing a similar concept. Jealous
I don’t know if this is a good translation or not. But iri is jealous, while dengki is spiteful.
I can you my jealousy of them as a fuel to drive me toward my goal, a motivation
While being spiteful to their success will only make me miserable
A good example of others got what I wanted is… when Galih got OSP and his design got stolen. Why am I jealous because of his creation got stolen? Idk
A good example of I got what others wanted is… when I am (kinda) smart in Biology, when Arya desperately wanted to become a doctor
Idk… I do really think that I just over thinking it. But idk, I just can’t let it slide like that.
So yeah… netizen… internet user… don’t be spiteful seeing others success, you can be jealous.
Just do no harm
And work hard…
Am I working hard? Objectively speaking I did work hard on something (Letisha), I can even say that I was overworking on it. But overworking is bad, speaking from experience
Sounds irresponsible… but that’s what I really think right now…