Agung Hapsah is a big part of my junior-senior high school transition. I joined the
In the other hand, Vincent Ricardo. I knew him since around last year. He doesn’t really influence me, but I can use him as an example
Today, I got a notification from YouTube (Notif squad!) that Agung just uploaded a new video. I was hooked.
Then, suddenly I saw Ricardo there. That was a big surprised to me. It’s rare to see a big YouTuber collab with a small YouTuber like this
My initial impression with this collab was… jealous
Two YouTuber that (IMO) similar to me, doing a collab without me…
Yeah, I really am wanna do a collab with them. So it would become a big-small-tiny YouTuber collab 😂
Btw about that similar statement. Some of my friends said that I sometimes looked and act similar to Agung Hapsah, and that’s not one or two friends either. It was three
I think it was Busel, Juna and Gex Anggi. They said that I imitate Agung, when in reality I just do what I usually do. But who knows what my subconsciousness doing
And Vincent, to be
The very first thing that I saw from Agung’s video
Is that sponsorship thing. Damn, I am so jealous… Bukalapak is one of the company that I want to work with, they seems like a great company
And Ricardo vids? He put the sentence ft. Agung Hapsah in his vid’s title. OMG, I am so jealous
It seems like,
I got what others wanted. Others got what I wanted
Yeah, that happened a lot of the times. I got what my friends wanted (That I don’t really want). And my friends got what I wanted so bad.
It became a circle… a line?! of jealousy
But… here come the twist
Feeling jealous is not (always) a bad thing
Me
At least in my opinion. In Bahasa Indonesia we have two word that describe something similar. Iri dan Dengki
According to my interpretation, they are describing a similar concept. Jealous
I don’t know if this is a good translation or not. But iri is jealous, while dengki is spiteful.
I can you my jealousy of them as a fuel to drive me toward my goal, a motivation
While being spiteful to their success will only make me miserable
A good example of others got what I wanted is… when Galih got OSP and his design got stolen. Why am I jealous because of his creation got stolen? Idk
A good example of I got what others wanted is… when I am (kinda) smart in Biology, when Arya desperately wanted to become a doctor
Idk… I do really think that I just over thinking it. But idk, I just can’t let it slide like that.
So yeah… netizen… internet user… don’t be spiteful seeing others success, you can be jealous.
Just do no harm
And work hard…
Am I working hard? Objectively speaking I did work hard on something (Letisha), I can even say that I was overworking on it. But overworking is bad, speaking from experience
Working hard is bad, not working hard is bad
Sounds irresponsible… but that’s what I really think right now…